Today I met with the school about Hollace and Aspergers. This past summer I had her in therapy to get a diagnosis or not so I could take it back to school and hopefully let her continue on seeing the social worker.
The therapist did diagnosis as Aspergers even though she acknowledged that it probably more apparent in a school situation.
Halfway through our sessions, she added on Anxiety Disorder mostly because of how she handles too much noise (ala Aspergers sensitivities) Honestly she is much improved over that sensitivity.
Anyway, at this meeting with the school today it has become more apparent that anxiety is more her issue then the Aspergers.
Why I call this a chip off the old block isn’t so much the anxiety in the sence of my anxiety posts of late but because she internally freaks out because she doesn’t get something and refuses to accept help.
An example the teacher gave was one day there was an announcement at the end of the day that anyone riding bus 6 needed to report to the gym because of a problem with busses. The teacher found Hollace in the hall looking flustered and crying. She asked what was wrong and Hollace kept saying nothing. It then clicked and the teacher asked Hollace if she was on bus 6. She admited she was and didn’t know what to do or where to go. The teacher escorted her to the gym and she was fine when she seen her friends on the bus.
Hollace is afraid to look stupid if she doesn’t know and tries to figure it out instead of asking someone.
Chip off the old block. My poor baby.
It got in - September 22, 2008 -
The photo I submitted to the College of Lake County’s juried art show got in.
Not the one at home, my Mac Book Pro, it rocks but my Dell at work. It has a gazillion gigs of RAM (I think 6 actually) but only recognizes 2 or 3. All the anxiety at work I have been experiencing has been compounded by my dumb ass computer. I have been getting some nutty errors and crashes that has made my intense timelines worse.
Adobe Encore (DVD authoring) is stupid too. I can’t believe that Adobe would put out such a buggy software. Just when I think I have figured out a problem I was having with my project, Encore would just crash.
Hopefully tomorrow the client will say what I finally got done is perfect and we can put that project to bed. I started it in July after all, I am sick of it.
I don’t know what I came on here to say, I don’t feel very articulate cause everything is either dumb or stupid, duh.
I think I need to get rid of my sewing machine. If I don’t have it then i won’t get the hairbrained idea that I can sew. I can not. Hollace wanted a black dress as a costume for her pretend band. I say hey, I can sew one! No I can’t, why do I keep forgetting that.
They got 10.5 inches of rain by mom’s house last weekend (I think we got a measly 4″). RAW was trying to get home throught that which proved to be a challenge no doubt.
I just put my PJs on and I keep catching a whif of perfume. I don’t have or wear perfume. I sniff the shirt and don’t smell it then eventually I catch it again. It only happened when I changed into it so I don’t know where it is coming from.
Today I dropped off a framed photo for the juried art show at the community college. It probably won’t get in. For some reason I felt like trying anyway. I should find out next week if it got accepted.
My boss was really impressed with the job that was giving me grief last week. He watched it 3 times. He said he was going to show it off. Cool. No one has heard if it worked out for the client yet. He was showing it in a trade show in Italy over the weekend.
I haven’t taken a single photo in the month of September and the month is half over.
I guess I am not done yet, I keep coming back to add more to this. On Sunday me and Hollace got to church (two Sunday’s in a row, wow 
) Anyway, we both wore bright yellow shirts and had rainbow umbrellas. Several people made mention of that. I said, yes, we are all sunshine and rainbows over here.
I guess that is enough blahblah from me tonight.
Ok, I suppose I should ask first if I am a geek because I have my own logo LOL
A long time ago I bought some ink jet window decals. I just found them so I decided to try them and printed my logo on a page. Put it on my car, why not?
This week has been up and down with stupid techinical difficulties that were putting me at the edge of panic.
The two big projects that have been killing me lately were still giving me trouble in some shape or another. I spent a lot of time troubleshooting this week.
I finished CARE up for the next review on Tuesday but not before some files that were fine before started giving me problems in the way of internal software errors. I eventually got it worked out but not before eating up lots of time.
Then on Wednesday the job that gave me anxiety last week needed more tweeking. At one point I was working on two computers at the same time to do both gigs.
Somewhere along the line my Flash file for this job that HAD to be finished went corrupt. I didn’t know for awhile because I could access the file fine but couldn’t publish it. I spent valuable time (over 2 hours) trying to either recreate or troubleshoot things before I could do the actual changes. I was proud I was able to figure out the problem but now I was in a major time crunch. I had to finish this Wednesday end of day. I did but yikes.
Thursday and Friday I was in training on Apple’s Motion. I have tried to sign up for this darn class several times but in those cases I was the only one who signed up so they canceled. John at work signed up and was facing the same fate so I signed up. There was another guy at Loyola who signed up as well.
This class was over by Ohare. The instructions on their site to get to them proved to be the worst directions. While I found the place, it took nearly 2 hours to get there and they had me going around in circles. The next day I looked it up on Google and shaved at least 20 minutes off my time. I actually got there 30 minutes earlier today but I think the TriState wasn’t as congested as it was yesterday.
Anyway the class kind of sucked. I learned a lot but that was mainly because it was a cool software with lots of things to learn but the instructor wasn’t really prepared, he just went through the book page by page.
We were suppose to get books to go along as well but they sent version 1 and we needed version 3.
On top of that the computers they had sucked and 3 of us (John escaped) had crashes that sometimes took the file with them. Really gave me the impression that Motion was an unstable software and I don’t think it is. I don’t think the iMacs they used were up to the task. Ok, crashing I can take but in 2 cases it totally deleted my file with it. Eek.
Back to anxiety. While I was in class today my cell phone went off. It was the boss. If he is calling me it can’t be good. I worried about the job I barely finished up before I left.
Nope it is CARE. They have a list of changes and the time crunch is on. The boss was worried that I might not have enough time on Monday to do them and get them out by Wednesday.
Just like last week with the other job, most of the changes are easy, minor but there are 2 big ones that I can’t forecast that I can fix in time. Even though both jobs are completely different (last weeks was a animated Flash booth display and this one is an authored DVD interactive game and video) I am taken by how similar the situation is.
I spent the rest of the class (and the night for that matter) fretting that I wasn’t going to be able to fix the two biggies.
My philosophy has always been not to fret and worry until absolutely necessary. For some reason I can’t seem to follow it.
I am not a drinker… at all! RAW is in Indiana and Hollace is in bed so tonight I thought I would finish off the *box* of wine that has been sitting around since Sherry was here for Ravinia (btw, Sherry was suppose to come up this weekend but canceled on me). I choked down a full glass of the Chardoney quickly. I was going for effect to take the anxiety edge off.
I guess it is working. I am stumbling around in this blog post LOL.
Blah, blah, blah, I am done rambling on. I have purged. Good night.
Besides printing updated photo business cards, I have also “published” a photo book of my county fair holga photos at Blurb.com, ordered some enlargements at mpix.com to submit at the College of Lake County juried art show (doubt I have a chance but what the heck, I am going for it anyway), ordered 5 free 8×10 photos at whcc.com as part of their free test print offer when you open an account from them.
This weekend I have been retouching old photos of RAW’s family that I scanned in a year or so ago. I plan on putting them on the digital frame I got Dorothy for her birthday. I also need to retouch mom’s large photo of her grandparents, get it printed and framed. I have been sitting on that one for a while.
I also plan on scanning a bunch of childhood photos of mine and put in these hanging frames I got from Ikea awhile back.
Keeping busy with photo projects of photos already taken.
Years ago I bought some Avery return address labels. 80 labels to a sheet for a package of 2000 labels.
The only template Avery had for them was in Word which was unacceptable for me. I needed Photoshop templates.
I could never get the template right and was highly frustrated that I eventually gave up.
This weekend I printed out new photo business cards and ran out so I was looking on Avery’s site when I noticed they don’t appartently make the cards I used and already made a successful Photoshop template of anymore.
While there I noticed they had Photoshop templates of a bunch of their products. I found and downloaded the 80 to a page return address labels. I get my package of return labels out and notice I have only one sheet left. I excitedly print my labels but wouldn’t ya know it I messed it up somehow. Hmm, should I take a chance and order these at the risk of another 2000 labels of waste? I then find 2 more sheets.
I try one sheet and sure enough the template is good only it is 5 pixels too low and I forgot to turn off the template boarder. I then put in my last sheet and try one more time.
Finally after 25 sheets, I finally have a perfect set of 80 return address labels!
Needless to say, I ordered some more.
I knew the amount of changes to yesterday’s job was doable by the end of the day but there were a couple of variables that I wasn’t sure about. I got an email from the manager who was in charge of the project asking me to stay as long as it took to finish it today.
The two hurdles I was facing went smoothly and by 4:00 quitting time I was done. Everyone was pleased how it turned out and I walked out (on time) feeling pretty good and quite opposite as I was last night.
Then I came home to my package from Archie McPhees. First, they sent my stuff in a box that use to have frozen seafood. RAW seen the box and had to open it the case it was a frozen seafood LOL. My free gifts were two packs of “Super Genius” gum and some recipe cards from 1973
And now to my order….
paparazzi
and some ants
and for Hollace (which we made her try and guess, of course she couldn’t….
actually the second thing she guessed was a pickle but then again pickles are her thing (not to eat but to blurt out of context because she finds it funny)
She was thrilled to say the least.
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Anxiety - September 4, 2008 -
All this week I have been working on a fairly involved rush project. Tomorrow is the due date. Right before I left for the day today I got the list of changes and such. Nothing I didn’t expect really but for some reason I felt ganged up on and keep having flashes of anxiety all night. I just got to keep telling myself that it is ok, I can do it and get it done. I guess I should look at the calendar and see if that time of month is coming close.
