It is that time again, a time full of promise that I will make my changes. Of course they are the same changes I promise myself every year but still I am optimistic I will do them…this year.
We had our typical New Years Eve, just stay home alone and celebrate by ourselves. Though this is how we like it I still feel a bit pitiful and lonesome. Everyone else seems to celebrate with other people even thought they tell me they don’t like to go out, they just invite a few friends over. Well someone is going out, like the friends. We never get invites like that. I know why not invite someone over here. I am sure everyone has their plans.
I actually got a New Years Eve-Eve party invite from Lisa C at work. She is all the way in Wisconsin, about a 40 minute drive. My hermit homebody tendancies told me I didn’t really want to go but I thought I better go anyway because someone actually invited me and I am out mingling with others.
Going to this party was a little awkward. No one else from work came like they apparently promised. I am not really in Lisa’s relm of friends at work, there was only a small handful that were there and Lisa isn’t much of a hostest not really introducing us to anyone or conversing with us. It felt a little like why the hell are we here?
When I asked Hollace if she wanted to go to a party she said sure, she might meet some new people. She knew there probably wasn’t going to be any kids there. I love that attitude and one I have been wishing she would have.
There was a 3 year old girl there that took her by her hand once we went downstairs. They ran around and played the whole night. The girl’s mother on the other hand might of been like me. I think she was Lisa’s sister-in-law. She sat there by herself and didn’t seem interested in having a conversation. I did try to engage her a bit like with the question of how old her daughter was. She said three and that was it. If I was more of an engaging person I would of forced her in a conversation with questions. I think I was looking in a mirror or maybe she was really a snob. I for the most part hung around RAW who was conversing with some neighbor guys and did they “uh huh” thing. Eventually I talked with Lisa’s boyfriend/fiancee’s mom. She was an interesting character.
We ended the night not knowing anyone’s name because no one ever said (including us), hi I am so and so, what is your name.
Oh well it was a lesson dealing with people. Practice makes perfect.
Looks like I went off on a tangent with my original title for this post.
I think I gained 10 lbs this holiday season. I am looking at the South Beach diet book and while I will probably pattern my eating plan with this I am so uninspired. All the testomials were edited horribly (or maybe they jump around with their experieces that badly) and they always ended it with, well I cheat a little now and am backsliding.
I think this is the curse of low carb diets. I will get more into my philosophy of this with my diet blog later. I think in my case, watch the fat (that means skipping my whole cream lobster bisque, yum) and especially watch portion sizes which is my big issue. I am still going to be low or only healthy carbs. I still think hypnosis is the key to my self destructive binges. Exercize is key. Tomorrow I think for exercize I will dance around the living room for 20-30 minutes. I will eventually join the health club at work.
I am also going to nip that personality problem I mentioned earlier in this post with hypnosis.
My photography and my photoblog will be a big deal in 2005. I hope to stretch and grow in this area.
I gave Hollace some resolutions too. She will tie her shoes and try new foods amongst others.
Today I cut my nails so I am feeling rather chatty but I think I will end this post anyway. Today we gave the DVD a workout watching movies. Me and RAW just watched Big Fish. Good movie. RAW wants me be acquire the movie for our collection.