{"id":167,"date":"2007-05-12T00:24:07","date_gmt":"2007-05-12T04:24:07","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/swardraws.com\/chatter\/?p=167"},"modified":"2007-05-12T00:24:07","modified_gmt":"2007-05-12T04:24:07","slug":"state-of-mind","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.swardraws.com\/chatter\/2007\/05\/state-of-mind\/","title":{"rendered":"State of Mind"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I think I have composed many a post for this blog in my head lately but for some reason I couldn&#8217;t bring myself to actually post. I have no idea what I have been meaning to say now.<\/p>\n<p>This week went unbelievable fast. I swear it was Monday yesterday and now we are 30 minutes into Saturday.<\/p>\n<p>This week I realized my state of mind has been on an even keel lately. I haven&#8217;t been in any funk or been overly paranoid. How I realized that is because I am approaching that state of mind right now LOL. This week my self confidence took a nose dive and there is no cause for it. I am starting to feel brain dead again. I went to a client meeting and contributed nothing to it and I am so sure that the AE is thinking that I am a slug, and why did I bother to invite her.<\/p>\n<p>My main thing this week is my confidence. I have been fighting to make sure that the AEs don&#8217;t just tag me as the web person and yet a potential cool job came about and I just sat their silent while my co-workers talked about how they would do it. My silence just highlighted what the AE probably thinks about me, that I am just a blah web designer. Forget the cool animation stuff. At the time, my brain deadness couldn&#8217;t comprehend the scope of the project but I can do that shit.<\/p>\n<p>So I went back to my thought plan that I need to find a therapist to help me get over myself<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I think I have composed many a post for this blog in my head lately but for some reason I couldn&#8217;t bring myself to actually post. I have no idea what I have been meaning to say now. This week &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/www.swardraws.com\/chatter\/2007\/05\/state-of-mind\/\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-167","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.swardraws.com\/chatter\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/167","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.swardraws.com\/chatter\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.swardraws.com\/chatter\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.swardraws.com\/chatter\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.swardraws.com\/chatter\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=167"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.swardraws.com\/chatter\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/167\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.swardraws.com\/chatter\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=167"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.swardraws.com\/chatter\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=167"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.swardraws.com\/chatter\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=167"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}