Today it occured to me that if I just wrote in a journal I would be more proactive on whatever whoas me. Aww shit, that above sentence made no sense but I am keeping it anyway.
I can’t believe how fat I have become again. I am totally disgusted. I don’t know what it will take to get it through my thick skull that I can’t do this to myself, the sabatoge eating.
In Fort Wayne right now
All the words are hiding in my brain right now. I could of swore they wanted to come out and play which is why I started this entry. I guess they are shy.
I am trying to fix too many things with me lately at the same time. They are all top priority. I got to lose 100 lbs, I got to get self confidence, I got to let everyone at work know what I am doing and that I am as capable as my co-worker, I got to get out there and take chances and quit showing Hollace a bad example of how to deal with people.
Probably working on all of these at the same time isn’t a good thing but I can’t pick which to concentrate on first.
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