I need to find ways to drown out all the distractions and focus on all the cool stuff I should be doing.
What cool stuff you ask? Learn lots of new software, work on creativity. There are a couple things at work in that department I need to concentrate on. I am on the marketing committee and our mini team need to come up with concepts for “The Clear Choice” I need to focus to do a design on focus. At home I need to get up to speed with Motion, Shake, Swift 3d (or any 3d) and now Poser. If I could quell my online Flickr time and concentrate of those I would have it made.
I am teetering on the feeling I can do it all and the one where I feel like I am going to lose it all. How conflicted. Maybe I should call one of those therapists. I finally found that list I have been looking for forever.
I am also in mourning on what I use to be proud of being super healthy. I keep having feelings of dread that something in that department is wrong. I need to get over myself. Get things fixed, move on.
I got an email that that ebay auction I won that I am suspicious of if finally now getting shipped. I will believe it when I see it. I won’t get it until after the wedding which is what prompted me to buy it. At least I went out and bought another one by normal methods.
On Friday is the wedding I am shooting. I am sure I will do fine and all will be good but as I mentioned above, I teether on feelings of success and failure. My personality (or lack of it) is my biggest concern.