sabotage, that is what it is plain and simple. Why do I do this to myself? Every day, maybe when I get home from work or maybe on the ride home, I should meditate (yeah driving and mediating mix) or visualize my goal. It really is just a mind game.
Oddly enough, I think I get more satisfaction writing this down on paper then typing this in my blog. I think I think better with a pen in my hand as opposed to in front of a keyboard. I just go blank when I sit down here in front of the computer. I can be more fluid with paper and pen.
I think I associate sitting in front of the computer with wasting time. Wasting time with Facebook, reading the news, surfing mindlessly. I need to stop that association because being a digital artist means sitting in front of the computer creating.
I don’t know if I was ever a focused person but now that I know I am not (and I blame the internet and the rush of media coming at you) I desperately try to be.
Do do do ok.