I have absolutely no initiative to do anything and something needs to be done.
I can blame it on my sinus infection of which I am still working on getting all that crap out of my head but that is not acceptable. I am in a funk and I want out, not looking for excuses.
I was all bitchy last night. I will blame that on Zyrtek withdrawl. I quit taking that Rx the lame ass doctor prescribed because first, I think the drug did nothing for a sinus infection since it is for allergy symptoms of which I had none. From what I read all Zyrtek does for a sinus infection is to make you drowsy since it is an anti-histamine. It doesn’t thin mucous to make it easier to get the crap out like I need. The fact that I was wasting my time with it pisses me off.
Yesterday at work people kept coming up feeling sorry for me about all the hacking I am doing. Paul, the boss, comes over and asks if I have been to a doctor yet. He said I should go again if that coughing doesn’t stop soon, I should be over it. Well I didn’t get the cough is a relative new development not occuring until day 5 of the crud and with me I could go on like this for months. I think today will be better but I can’t help think that lame ass doctor’s prescription is prolonging this with me.
Maybe I have the end of winter blahs. What can I do to shake it when all I want to do is climb back in bed and hibernate. I suppose RAW has the same afliction because I am begining to become resentful that he does NOTHING all day at home. He waits until I walk into the door to run the vaccuum cleaner so it can bug me and Hollace. I have a long list of things that need to be done with the house, I suppose I should give it to him but I am mad that he isn’t taking any initiative himself. He knows what needs to be done. Aside from that I gave him the green light to find a truck. I would like to have one for our end of March vacation but he doesn’t seem to jump to the occassion. It is also time for him to get a job but I am sure that won’t happen cause of his age and work history.
What I need for my state of mind (and ever expanding ass) is a nice long walk, with my camera, to clear my head, get creative and some initiative. Come on spring, I need you!