At my mother-in-laws tonight. We were watching a movie on Lifetime called “Fat Like Me” where this athletic high-school girl is doing a documentary wearing a fat suit to try and prove that if you have a great personality, being fat should be no excuse for anything.
Well of course she found out immediately how mean people were when you are fat. It was exaggerated for the most part with people passing by with utter looks of disgust.
Anyway, the part that got me thinking was the relationship this girl had with her mom. Apparently her mom at one time, was really obese and got sick. She then lost 80 lbs and was at a more normal weight. The daughter was very angry at her mom and was ashamed that her mom ever got like that and made herself sick because of her weight. That story line was a bit exaggerated as well but it did make me wonder what Hollace might think some day of her obese mom.
And I am now starting to worry about my health. Last time I was this big I was very healthy but I don’t feel so much so this time around. I am a bit of a hypercondriac especially over diabetes and breast cancer. Neither of those fears so far has done anything to help me change my habits. I am not sure what is it going to take. It is like I keep forgetting I have a problem or only remember after I ate the wrong foods. Several months ago I made this inspiration card that I was hoping I would meditate on every morning to help drill it in my head, I never look at the card.
What do I need to do to get it in my head?