I think I have composed many a post for this blog in my head lately but for some reason I couldn’t bring myself to actually post. I have no idea what I have been meaning to say now.
This week went unbelievable fast. I swear it was Monday yesterday and now we are 30 minutes into Saturday.
This week I realized my state of mind has been on an even keel lately. I haven’t been in any funk or been overly paranoid. How I realized that is because I am approaching that state of mind right now LOL. This week my self confidence took a nose dive and there is no cause for it. I am starting to feel brain dead again. I went to a client meeting and contributed nothing to it and I am so sure that the AE is thinking that I am a slug, and why did I bother to invite her.
My main thing this week is my confidence. I have been fighting to make sure that the AEs don’t just tag me as the web person and yet a potential cool job came about and I just sat their silent while my co-workers talked about how they would do it. My silence just highlighted what the AE probably thinks about me, that I am just a blah web designer. Forget the cool animation stuff. At the time, my brain deadness couldn’t comprehend the scope of the project but I can do that shit.
So I went back to my thought plan that I need to find a therapist to help me get over myself