I wonder if I write a little something every day here about food and eating, I can convince myself to stop sabatoging myself with bad food. Part of the reason would be to put this top of mind because when I am gorging on the no nos, the eating right never crosses my mind. I think on of the reasons I eat fast is to get as much in before I remember I should be eating that. Really? Why am I doing that? How the hell do I be accountable to myself.
Today the LiveLifeWell coach called. Our goal for me was 15 minutes of walking 2 or 3 days a week. I agreed to that knowing I could easily get back on track for more so I would blow her way with my actual walking. I did. I told her I walk 15 minutes a day during lunch with those rock and rollie shoes and 30 minutes on the treadmill every work night. She was impressed but shouldn’t be. I am not walking all that fast. I am still paranoid of the treadmill but discovered that if I incline it, I can walk faster without feeling out of control. It is a win win. Still I don’t think I make a dent as far as excerise goes. For me that isn’t the point anyway, I know the kind of exercise I do won’t help me really lose weight. I do it for my state of mind.
What will really make an impact is eliminating the sugar or dialing it down a lot. Hollace’s new baking bread thing doesn’t help either.
Today is Valentine Day. I managed to stay away from the main office that was full of sweet treats. I did a couple laps near there at lunch and seen it but I wasn’t tempted. Sounds promising until I got home where I ate 2 Little Debbies (dang you RAW for bringing those home) and I gave everyone a bag of mini Reces and of course that includes me too. Those things are really dangerous because there is no unwrapping. It is just stick your hand in the bag and grab a handful.
I was just reading about Charlie Sheen and what Dr. Drew Pinski calls his “stinking thinking” about not really coming to terms with his drug addictions. He sounded just like me when it comes to my eating. I am going to start using that phrase every time I think it is ok to eat that.